Maybe I am being emo right now because I am sick… I don’t know…

There is something I read once… Some people come in to your life to stay forever and experience your life with you. Some people come and stay for just a period of your life to teach you something then they go. It isn’t intentional… it just is. We all have these forever people (family and friends) and we have the short termers. There is no mention on how to deal with the loss of a relationship. Romantic relationships… some believe to just have another one. This concept however can’t apply to a family member or a friend. I mean seriously… that would just be odd, “well I just find a new cousin I don’t know about or start hanging with a new friend.”  It just isn’t me to have my relationships with people to be like that. I always seem to stumble upon great people and don’t want those great people to have a “times up”. Maybe that’s just the part of me that tends to be all in it or nothing, but once I am all in it, I don’t know how to go back to nothing. I seem to fail at this :-P If some one knows how let me know… lol!

I have been told that some people that once were will come again and stay and some just maybe periodicals. I haven’t really had this happen yet, but I hope that it does. There are a few people that I miss greatly that I so much wish were a part of my life. Some it stings a little to think of and some I just miss the shit out of.

I will forever be grateful for the lessons I have learned from others, the ones that are here today and the ones that aren’t so much. They have taught me so much about me and the kind of person I want to be.

Until next time of the wacky wilde thoughts of me….

New Years Resolutions

Listening to: Jack Johnson "Flake"
Where I be sittin: in bed

Weather: snowing... it sucks

New Year’s Resolutions... We all make that list every year of the things we want to accomplish for the year, there are always the ones that are repeats from the year before or years that we considered as failed. The list always includes improvements we need to make in our lives, whether it be improving are health, money, relationships, or interests.

It is almost depressing if you think about it. We sit down at the beginning of a new year and consider revamping for the New Year by making at list of last year’s failures or things we suck at. It seems we never sit down at the end of the year and consider where we were at the beginning of the year and compare. We all accomplished something... a relationship improved with someone that was needed. You may have not been able to save money but maybe you made it through the year paying bills without stealing from Peter to Paul. Was there something you learned or experienced? A lesson that you will never forget or will forever change your thinking on that’s for the good? Even took up reading to your kids more just because they picked up the interest and asked you to? Made it to work every day or almost?

I found my 2011 New Year’s Resolutions List and it was quite disappointing to see that I did not satisfy a single goal on there. I than began writing my 2012 New Year’s Goals, slightly depressing me even more that I was repeating some of last year’s, but was kind of stoked to make them more successful this year by planning each one out and making those plans more realistic. However, I couldn't get over the fact that I failed yet again for another year. Then I had this epiphany, its seems that I finally took some time to breathe, remember who I was and my positive juices started flowing... I wasn’t as a big of a failure I as I was considering (I know so dramatic, I am a girl, we girls do that) made a list of all the things I did accomplish. The relationships that I obtained that I needed; new relationships and old ones that have grown. The lessons I learned that I may forever spend the rest of my life thinking differently. Money issues are definitely better than last year. I remembered an interest I enjoyed once and have someone that stimulates that interest and assists in bring it out and making it grow over the last few months. This has all happened without my knowledge, without being on a list that I had to make happen.

Now, I don't think we should not make New Year’s Goals, cuz the crazy perfectionist in me can't help but make that list. However, maybe before we write out the new goals for the year, we need to spend some time really considering what was accomplished in our lives for the past year. Write it out, read it, see how much of the paper it fills before we really consider filling a new paper with new goals. Goals are good to have they keep us on track with life and help motivate us, but let's not forget the changes that have changed for the good, these are the successes we had. These are the real goals that we probably had in the first place but thought they were illogical to have as goals.

What were your accomplishments last year?

I don't know if there is much sense in my ramblings... do what you will with it. :)